despite being a very sensitive person, growing up & as an FBI student / recruit, holden’s never been bothered by pictures & other footage of murder scenes. his very first experience with death, however, occurs at the show’s opening sequence, where holden is caught up in a HOSTAGE NEGOTIATION situation, trying to convince cody miller ( the abductor ) not to take his own life. his failed attempt ends in miller’s suicide, a gun to his head. holden witnessing the whole scene from just a few feet away.
it’s important to note that holden gets EMOTIONALLY INVOLVED real fast & takes things to heart. he sees miller’s suicide as personal failure & thoroughly blames himself for his death ; one that could have been, in ford’s opinion, prevented. he consequently falls into a minor depression, as is revealed by the following scene, where his boss, shepard, informs him he is re - assigned him as a teacher to keep him busy & focused.
another sign of this trauma happens a few scenes after, while holden’s exercising on the quantico tracks & other recruits practice FIRING their guns in the nearby shooting range :
the loud BANG that echoes is enough to drag him into a brief state of panic, which he manages to keep hidden from his colleagues. but it’s really witnessing the act of suicide that TRIGGERS ford. throughout the majority of the season, he’s confronted with numerous graphic pictures of murders / dead bodies & is required to go out on the field to INVESTIGATE first hand ( being then privy to gruesome accounts from victims’ relatives & criminals alike ) & while he’ll display empathy towards most interviewees, he never seems fazed by the pictures or the oral descriptions themselves.
i believe holden will get far more personally INVESTED ( emotionally as well as physically ) in a murder scene he’s been the witness of, as shown not only in the scene at the very beginning of the season but also the entire episode spent at the fredericksburg elementary school, trying to figure out the best course of action when he realized how deviant the principal’s behavior turned out to be. ━ the very same goes with being in contact with a dead body.
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this is an independent roleplay blog for HOLDEN FORD, the co - founder of the fbi’s BEHAVIORAL SCIENCE UNIT, from d.avid fincher’s mindhunter. my portrayal of holden is heavily based on personal headcanons, as well as j.onathan groff’s performance.
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this blog has been created purely out of fun purposes, as i am in no way affiliated with d.avid fincher, netflix or j.onathan groff. THE OPINIONS EXPOSED ON THIS BLOG ARE MY CHARACTER’S AND NOT NECESSARILY MY OWN, thank you for keeping this in mind at all times.
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be warned, mature themes such as murder, serial killings, kidnapping, etc. and the mention thereof will be heavily featured on this blog. ALL NSFW CONTENT IS TAGGED ACCORDINGLY, but be sure to let me know if you need any specific trigger tagged. the anon feature is open continuously to express hate - free opinions & send show / character - related asks.
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hiyo, I’M NANNIE ( 18+ ). welcome to my umpteenth blog dedicated to weird old preachers & squeaky - clean fbi agents on tumblr dot hell. :)
☞ AN AGENT IN THE FBI’S ELITE SERIAL CRIME UNIT DEVELOPS PROFILING TECHNIQUES AS HE PURSUES NOTORIOUS SERIAL KILLERS & RAPISTS.
* GENERAL
NAME : holden ford *ALIAS(ES) : ████GENDER : male AGE : 29 DOB : 26 / 03 / 48 ETHNICITY : caucasian NATIONALITY : american PLACE OF BIRTH : brooklyn, ny CURRENT RESIDENCE : ████ OCCUPATION : fbi agent / criminal profilerDEPARTMENT : serial crime unitSPOKEN LANGUAGE : english ALIGNMENT : lawful good HEIGHT : 5 ’ 11 “HAIR : light brownEYES : blueDISTINGUISHABLE TRAITS : none.
STRENGTHS : caring, loyal, committed, disciplined, astuteWEAKNESSES : reserved, work-driven, impulsive, stubborn, anxious
* PERSONALITY
COMPASSION : 7 / 10 EMPATHY : 8 / 10 CREATIVITY : 5 / 10 MENTAL FLEXIBILITY : 9 / 10 PASSION / MOTIVATION : 10 / 10 EDUCATION : 9 / 10 STAMINA : 7 / 10 PHYSICAL STRENGTH : 3 / 10 BATTLE SKILL : 5 / 10 INITIATIVE : 8 / 10 RESTRAINT : 4 / 10 AGILITY : 5 / 10 STRATEGY : 9 / 10 TEAMWORK : 6 / 10
* INTJ - THE ARCHITECT
INTROVERTED : 64 %INTUITUVE : 62 %THINKING : 56 %JUDGING : 96 %ASSERTIVE : 64 %